It just takes too much energy to smile.
Choked up by the swell of these tears.
I keep on trying to numb all this sadness
With a steady stream of whiskey, weed, & beer.
Now, at first I didn’t believe it
When you said you would be leaving.
Leaving me alone without you.
Then there’s all the talking with these people.
I say “hi”, nod, & joke, then say “goodbye”.
But I don’t even know what they’re saying.
Cuz my mind is all on you tonight.
It’s just too hard to fake.
Not sure I can take it.
Being all alone without you.
Hardest part of all is the nighttime.
Biding time in the prison of my head.
All is quiet. Nothing is stirring.
Wishing in vein you were by my side instead.
I don’t know if I can make it.
I don’t think I’m gonna make it.
Being all alone without you.
I don’t know what can shake this.
I don’t think I’m gonna make it.
Being all alone without you.
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